Packing...

'A' and my interview date for his greencard application came sometime earlier this month... just when we were expecting for him to get his work permit and travel documents!

I have heard that typically people get all their documents, by mail, before the interview date... and so ours' came as a surprise! Especially because it came so quickly too.

Anyhow so yeah, the interview date came during the school quarter for me and so I had to get excused from attending classes for 2 days while I fly to SC to be with my hubby for the interview.

But, there's 2 things that I am extremely grateful for... the first one of course is that the forms that we filled in got processed properly... second, I GET TO MEET MY HUSBAAAAND!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY... we thought we wouldn't be meeting until the summer since university is getting kind of harder because I'm a senior and I'm taking a few accelerated classes in a month. Third, if the interview date was to be after even a week, that would mean having to postpone it due to finals week, for me :(

So, yup, I'm veeeeery grateful alhamdulillah!

I fly out on Friday, May 29th insha'Allah & our interview is set for Monday... please keep us in your prayers :D

Thank you.

1 year...

Tomorrow (May 25th 2009) will be one year since I met my husband for the first time.

I cannot seriously even begin to imagine how things/my life have changed in the past year.

I went from wanting to get married to suddenly getting married at the age of 21! I have go to say that I have been blessed.

Also, having gone down the traditional route and having married the person that my parents sort of chose for me has been an amazing experience thus far!

People still find it hard to believe that my husband and I have known each other for only one year and have been married for over 7 months of that :D hahaha... what can I say? I like shocking people ;)

I am truly loving every moment of this, except the distances :(

It's soooo difficult not to have the person that you love like craaazy, not be near you. I cannot even begin to tell you how terrible it feels.

But even for that, I think we've been doing well so far.

It's due to school and everything else that we've been having to limit our meetings and so I cannot wait till December so that we can finally live together.

Roadbumps along the way...

The road to happiness is far from smooth and easy, it does have a few roadbumps along the way.

It's stupid how you'll find that your spouse and you might have a disagreement about something so pathetic! Alhamdulillah, I thank my lucky stars that it's still over something dumb as opposed to something huge, till now.

We've been married for a little over 7 months and we've had a few disagreements and alhamdulillah that I think these really help us to understand one another better.

I'd rather not fight, but when we do, I think we come out stronger.

Alhamdulillah, I have found so much happiness in my marriage and it has given my life so much.

And, I think the next time I feel the urge to raise a topic that upset me, maybe it'd be better just to think about how my husband has changed my life for the better, and how I'm so much happier than I've ever been and how this has been a dream come true for me masha'Allah.

Every few dreams, you might get a nightmare and I guess that's what marriage is like.

So, 'A', I know you'll eventually read this :P

I'm still sorry for our argument last night and you've made my life beautiful and insha'Allah I'll try to appreciate you more. And in return, I hope that we can learn to understand each other better and both of us need to learn to give each other the benefit of the doubt :)... me, firstly. I'll try not to get upset so easily... but of course this is easier said than done, but I owe you a lot baby and so I'm willing to try. Also, please, if I ever do say anything just take a breath and let me say it and realize that I still love you and in no way am I criticizing you, I'm just upset at the situation.

I know that some stuff is private and should not be posted everywhere, but I wanted to discuss the issue of arguments because for 2 newlyweds it's all very confusing. Once you argue, you begin to get scared for your relationship and don't really understand who to turn to for advice. And so alhamdulillah, I'm learning that we ARE a strong couple and that there's a rainbow at the end of a storm.

Also, as a final word, I would encourage everyone to invest in a good book about 'effective vs. affective' speaking, insha'Allah. I had read one but don't remember what it was called... maybe something like 'Effective Speaking'... LOL.

Ok, so I'm gonna end this here. At the beginning of this post, I was feeling down and had a heavy heart but now I'm feeling more positive about the future and am really looking forward to times of more happiness :D

Alhamdulillah, All praise and glory is to Allah.
The One who showed mercy and compassion upon me and has blessed me with so much.
I do not regret anything that He had given me, alhamdulillah.
Rather, I am having to teach myself to truly appreciate and cherish all that He has gifted me with.


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Vanity...

Having recently put on 20 pounds is becoming kind of hard on me... I finally understand the aches and pains that showed up, what felt like randomly at first.

I am really not liking it :(

I am not a vain person and hardly obsess about my looks (well, haven't since high school anyways), but I these 20 pounds have been really hard on me.

I think the reason for this may stem back to the fact that I was far more overweight a few years ago than I was just recently... and so now I'm freaking out because I'm back to where I was over 5 years ago!

So yeah, I was not a vain person but I'm scared of the way that I'm feeling now =(

I guess it's just that I really really wanted to look good for my wedding reception, and I'm not the only one who has noticed my recent weight... everyone's been on my case telling me, 'Do you want to be a fat bride?' or stuff like "Oh, now that you're that you're __ years old your metabolism will slow down and so it'll get harder to lose weight but don't worry... since you're already not doing anything, it'll be fine for you!"

So yeah, I guess I've been a little down for a few days now... but alhumdulillah I'm doing somewhat better today. Also, alhamdulillah my husband 'A' has been quite comforting at this time.

I don't know though, I'm just feeling very confused about my recent concern about the way I look... I haven't felt this insecure or upset in a while.

But, again, I did well today... I ate all healthy & have been more positive.

I just hope it lasts.

Oh, on a more positive note, I'm planning on throwing myself a party... since I'll be moving to SC in December, I just wanted to arrange a little get-together with my friends...

So... I'm super excited because I get to go dress shopping for the event, next weekend :D

Notes to self...

- Need to mail out the cards, asap./ Get the rest of the addresses of our relatives.

- Keep an eye on the RSVP e-mail address.

- Give 'A' his outfit for the reception so that he can try it on for size.

- Get the 'blouse' of your sari from your aunt.

- Ask how many bottles of coke we need to buy for 100 guests!!!

- Smile :)

Somewhat positive...

Our reception invitations have arrived... yes, they're for the reception though they have the words 'wedding' on them :D

I'm super psyched!!! You have no idea :)... My husband said that they're really pretty and my in-laws had already told me the same and so now I can't wait to take a look, for myself!

Also, our interview date for his greencard came in... YAY!!! Alhamdulillah.

Oh, and today is the wedding of my husband's older brother 'R'.

So yup, I guess a lot of good things are going on, afterall.

But, i'm still 20 pounds heavier than I was when I got married! That still sucks.

20 Pounds *sigh*

I am getting ready to have another big reception in 3 months, for my wedding which happened 7 months ago, and I'm super excited.

I guess when you set yourself up so high with excitement, some kind of setbacks are bound to occur =(

Well, my setback came in the form, well I was on medication for the past few months (just regular stuff), and it sort of made me put on 20 pounds in 8 months!!! The question that everyone had was, how come I didn't notice that I had put on so much weight??? Truth being, I hardly even look at myself in the mirror! And yes, I was wondering why I was randomly putting on weight though I was moving around more on campus and wasn't eating out pretty much at all... so yeah, also, I have been in my jammies A LOT... and, they have DRAWSTRINGS!

So yup, I didn't freaking notice that I put on 20 pounds =(

Just when I was thinking of trying to lose weight since I'm going to be meeting my husband and my in-laws again, insha'Allah, this comes and hits me...

And sadly, I've been feeling down about it... I don't know if going off the meds will make me lose all the weight or whether I'll have to work my butt off?

I'm just irked that I didn't catch the weight gain at 10 pounds, even.

So yeah, everyone is losing weight for their upcoming nuptuals and here I just put so much on.